The Best Half of Me

The situation around was insane. Enter the Month of May and we saw a new threat coming up on all of us - 'Lay offs'. Every other IT company was laying off its employees and I saw new posts everyday on LinkedIn. Sustainability was at stake now and in between all this I was utterly clueless as to what I should do. I never wanted to leave Delhi, because I had a career to establish and also I had my best half here in this place. I had become half mad by this time and half the time I spoke utter nonsense.

Now speaking of my best half. Trust me she is the one responsible for me being alive today. I would never had survived if she was not with me. Yes we had our own set of disputes and quarrels (Quarrels are in integral part in a relationship, it strengthens it rather.) but yes we spent a whole lot of time together (virtually). Playing online ludo was one thing we enjoyed, though I won most of the time (all thanks to the calculations and deciphering the code). We spoke a lot, like about 8-9 hours a day and shared a lot, things we did not know about each other. Once we had some respite, we again went into a new set of argument. Trust me, nothing in this world is more complex than the mood swings of a woman! Maybe thats why Newton decided to concentrate on Calculus.

We heard songs. I sang one for her after 7 long years. Now I was once suffering from Hodgkins Lymphoma and had to take radiation therapy on my throat as the best way of treatment. Since then somehow the pitch and throw of my voice (once the lead singer and emcee of a Bengali rock band 'MNM') had reduced but yet I somehow got it back for just that song (Tomay Dilam!). When I was not talking to her, I spent the day thinking about her and yes that helped me a lot to remain occupied and be in a fit state of mind. I did a lot of extra curricular activities like drawing (her face out of my imagination, oh yes! She is the most beautiful woman ever) and I even started Instagram videos and long posts regarding Quarantine days on Facebook. I cared a damn as to who liked or read them for I was sure she will do both.

We had our own sets of highs and lows and all that mattered for me was we are together, be it virtually, no matter what. The best part of her was the way she took care of me. I had to send her pics of my dinner everyday in order to establish the fact that I am eating. Stupidity right? Maybe being stupid is sometimes an act of intelligence. We both prayed for each other the entire time, and she took the Atheist out of me and I became a beleiver, but as I had said lots of times 'I don't beleive in God, I believe in you'.

Most of the time I did spend my time in the balcony with Peechu, just looking down the lane and imagining what would I do if I saw her walk down the street? The house is in a mess and she is going to be furious! I still wait, everyday, every nano second. 

She was the one who helped me by being with me and loving me so much that I could survive for 75 long days without seeing her pretty face up front. Its not just love that I have for her, its a belief that works as well. The light at the end of the long tunnel! She is the one without who I am just another guy in this world and with her, I am a Winner.

With this I end the first series of my quick short tales of lockdown days. This blog would seem nonsensical without her mention and hence I decided to end this with the 12th story(Not 11 or 13th).More to come.