It has been more than four months since we last met.
I still remember that day. 13th June 2020. You
looked so beautiful in that blue Kurti. I
was there. To pick you up from you place. I saw you walk towards the cab
wearing a white mask on your face. I could just see your eyes from far away.
The eyes looking out for me, with the same love and affection as always. I was
simply overwhelmed and overjoyed with the aura that you had.
As we sat together in the cab, you held my hand. I resisted.
Our last meeting did not go very well and I was in two minds about a lot of
things. You asked me about my health. You scolded me for smoking too much. You
asked me about Peechu. I sat there answering each question in monosyllables. I
was not in a right state of mind for sure, yet I never stopped loving you. I
was not able to resist your touch. It felt that is something out of the world.
We reached my place, or as we called it our place. The
choicest of curtains, cushions, bedsheets everything was kept locked in my
closet. I wanted you to decorate the place yourself, after we were together for
a lifetime. I had put up a new bedsheet for your arrival, cleaned the room, the
toilet was spick and span and the kitchen smelled of the delicious chicken that
I had cooked just for you. You entered the flat, welcomed by Peechu who was
waiting for you eagerly. She knew you just by your smell. She had been trained
that way. I had her smell the t-shirt that you were last wearing, my t-shirt.
It had your smell in it and she recognized you and leapt at you like a child
meeting her mother.
You were her mother, if I am her father. You spent some time
with her, patting her on the back, scratching her ears. Peechu was more than
happy that day. The happiest that I have ever seen her.
We sat on the bed, spoke about few things of not much
importance. I was resisting my temptation to touch you on the cheeks and kiss
you on your forehead. Just to show you that I love you with all of myself. That
I love you more than anything in this cosmos.
You came near me suddenly and sat on my lap. I resisted
again. But could not. We kissed softly. Then something happened. We forgot
everything. We had the longest and the most passionate kiss. The softness of
your lips and the feeling of your hands on my back was enough for me to forget
reality and again enter into our world of dreams. We laid down beside each
other and kissed again. I held you in my arms like a child grasping his
favorite toy. I never wanted to let go of you ever. I never wanted to lose
sight of you ever. I never wanted to stop loving you, ever.
Yes, we had sex. I have always termed it as love-making. I
was inside you and with every push I could feel the warmth of our relationship.
I could feel that there is something in this world which is my own. Which is
probably something I have always craved for and I know you have as well.
After that I just lied down on your arms. The place where I
found all the solace in the world. Tears rolled down my eyes. I just looked at
your face and cried. I still don’t know why! Might be because we were together
after 88 long days! I said nothing. I could not say anything. I just continued
to look at you as you continued to wipe my tears. You said nothing, though I
wanted you to say something. I wanted you to just say once that you love me and
will always be with me, no matter what.
We had lunch. All three of us together. For the first and
probably the last time. I had made your favorite chicken curry, the dhaba style
one which you loved a lot. Maybe that’s the last time I had a proper lunch!
I have always imagined life to be like this. Just me and
you! With whatever we have, be it more or less, adequate or inadequate, good or
bad, I just knew that we would be happy. I would never ever let tears come to
your eyes ever. I would never ever let anything bad happen to you ever. I will
always just love you and care for you till the end of time. And as I always said
‘I Live for you’!
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